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The Decade My Recovery Began
On November the 11th, 2020 my 2nd Granddaughter Millie was born. She was followed a week later on the 21st November 2020 with the birth of my 3rd granddaughter Sky. Sadly a month later I lost another beloved pet, my dog Rosie who passed away suddenly on the 11th of December, 2020. With that tragic event to go along with all the tragic events of the previous decade and my living environment seeming impossible to sort out I knew I had to try and move because living at Crossfield Road, Kitts Green was slowly killing me.
In 2021 I finally managed to downsize from a very lonely 3 bedroomed house to a homely 1 bedroom bungalow I have been wanting for years but had no chance of getting. Hitting 55 was the best thing that could have happened to me in a long time! At last, I had moved back home to Shard End, my spiritual home. Obviously, I won’t say where for security reasons. I don’t think I would be here to write this if I had not moved so soon after Rosie’s passing, I truly believe that. Steadily and slowly I am rebuilding my life, minimising as much stress as I can. My Mom would have wanted that for me. It is sad that she can’t see where I live now but I know she is pleased with me. I still have mental health problems, they are part of me, it is a medical condition but it is one I shall try to keep under control the best I can. I will have my bad days as well as good ones but thankfully the darker days that wanted me to totally give in are better under control.
For the first time in a very long time, I feel content and I had forgotten since I left school what that felt like.
On January the 15th, 2022 my 3rd Granddaughter Aurora was born. Despite this wonderful event, the year’s start is mixed with very dark thoughts that haunt me. I struggle more with my depression and anxiety during the winter months. I hope my mind gets better soon because it is not in a good place right now. Moving may have solved one problem for me but unfortunately, the feeling of loneliness eats away at me and winter does not help one bit.
My memorable memories of this decade so far are the birth of Millie, Sky and Aurora and moving to my bungalow with lots more to come I am sure.